Cardigan

Because I was that girl. Because I can still remember the first time a man put his hands on me. I remember the way it felt. I remember the way it made me feel. And I remember thinking he wouldn't do it again. But I was wrong. Because I was the girl who swore up …

The Fight

'Wait, what?' It's the question I get asked the most when explaining how my ex husband walked out on me and our kids on our 5 year wedding anniversary nearly 4 years ago. 'But, you're like, happy...?' Darn right, I am. This is when they start to just glaze over. You can tell they want …

Here I Am

Because I can still remember all the prayers I thought you forgot. The nights I spent crying. Asking you what I did to deserve any of this. Because I was miserable. I was lonely. And because I felt forgotten. But then here I am. And I am only here because of You. Because you pursued …

Catch Me

And I think my biggest fear is that one day I’ll wake up and realize it was never real.  That it was too good to be true. That I went and did it again.  Falling for the wrong guy.  That I will wake up and I won’t have my best friend anymore.  That it was …

Amen

Lord, thank you.  Thank you for this man. This amazing and perfect man. This man I never realized existed.  This man who changed everything.  Lord, thank you.  Thank you for sending me a man who loves You more than he loves himself. A man who knows You. A man who fears You. A man who …

Falling Short

I wish I could figure out the words.  The words to use to talk about this.  To talk about us. See? Words are my life. They are the one thing I know. The one place I feel the most comfortable. (Well, besides you.) And yet, with you, I fall short. Every time, I fall short.  …

Here

I made it. Finally, I made it.  I can hardly catch my breath.  I never actually expected to make it here.  There was something always getting in my way. Mostly that was me, but I made it. I must have passed by this place a thousand times. Mostly in my head, passing the time until …

Date Night

I took myself on a date last night.  Just me. And you want to know something?  It was perfect.  Perfect because I didn't have to worry about what I was going to wear.  Perfect because I could just be without worrying about trying to make an impression. Perfect because I didn't have to worry about …

Just the Two of Us

So here we are. Just the two of us, again.  You know, you're setting a pretty impossible bar.  Because even the good ones fall short.  You did that.  You made me realize just how much I deserve. How much I shouldn't settle. And just how much I have settled in the past.  I wish I …

“God Hid Her”

Because I shared this blog with another friend of mine. It didn't apply to me because at the time I was convinced that I had found the man of my dreams.  He was everything that I could have ever wanted and I believed that I was finally done looking.  My kids loved him. I loved …