Lesson Learned

Because I learned something today. Something big. From someone small. It started on the way home from school. "Someone called me ugly today," she told me from the backseat. "Oh yeah? What happened?" I pretended not to be upset, but inside I was fuming. Thinking of all the things I would say to this person. …

Love, Mom.

Happy Birthday, sweet boy.  I can remember this day, 7 years ago, like it was yesterday. That was the day everything changed.  I remember anticipating what I thought it would be like to see you for the first time. I was completely wrong about the whole thing.  The minute, no, the second, I laid my …

Single Mother

And so, I'm hiding in my closet, in the dark, eating gummy bears quietly, taking turns between writing this, closing my eyes, and talking to Him because today has been a challenge. Because today has been hard. Because today I need a break. I need a minute to myself. Not just bedtime, but an actual …

Stretch Marks

"With both of my pregnancies I only gained 11lbs, but my stomach was covered in stretch marks. At 8 1/2 months pregnant with Jaxsyn (my first), he dropped and my stomach never looked the same. My stretch marks were dark, and very deep into the skin. While I was proud of how I earned them, …

To Justin

If I haven't already said it enough, thank you for yesterday. Thank you so much. I haven't laughed like that in years. For a night I forgot that I was here. Everything was so perfect. It was everything that I could have wanted, but forgot that I could have. It took me a long time …