Knowing

Because it wasn't supposed to be like this. That's all I know. When people ask me what I need, I can't answer. Because I just don't know. I don't know what's going to make me feel better. I don't know what's going to stop my crying. I just don't know. And I hate it. I …

Just Look

I'm sure I've written something similar before. Something along these same lines. I know, because I remember crying out to Him, asking Him "why" over and over again. I already know the answer. And I'm sort of grateful for that. Because I'm not in this place of wondering anymore. Because I know. I think back …

Impossible

Because this morning I woke up with a thousand things on my mind. He wasn't one of them. Completely stressed out. Full of worry. With a to-do list a mile long. And yet, He insisted I come spend some time with Him. ‘The rest of the world can wait,’ He said. I fought His calling …

Here I Am

Because I can still remember all the prayers I thought you forgot. The nights I spent crying. Asking you what I did to deserve any of this. Because I was miserable. I was lonely. And because I felt forgotten. But then here I am. And I am only here because of You. Because you pursued …

Amen

Lord, thank you.  Thank you for this man. This amazing and perfect man. This man I never realized existed.  This man who changed everything.  Lord, thank you.  Thank you for sending me a man who loves You more than he loves himself. A man who knows You. A man who fears You. A man who …

You Can Be

So recently I've been living or trying to live (verdict is still out on that) in a season of contentment.  God has really put it on my heart that despite my best efforts this is where I am supposed to be, doing what I'm supposed to be doing.  I can stop trying to run.  I …

All Wrong

Y'all, I think I've been doing it all wrong.  Let me start off by asking you the same question someone asked me.  "Why do you go to church on Sunday morning?"  I didn't even have to think about the answer.  I go because it's what I do. I go because of how I feel when …

Enough. 

Seek peace and pursue it. (Psalm 34:14) Every so often, as I am spending time in God's word do I stop and go, 'That. That's what He wants me to write about.'  I read it over and over.  Seek peace and pursue it.  At first, I was convinced it had to do with my life. …