Knowing

Because it wasn't supposed to be like this. That's all I know. When people ask me what I need, I can't answer. Because I just don't know. I don't know what's going to make me feel better. I don't know what's going to stop my crying. I just don't know. And I hate it. I …

The Fight

'Wait, what?' It's the question I get asked the most when explaining how my ex husband walked out on me and our kids on our 5 year wedding anniversary nearly 4 years ago. 'But, you're like, happy...?' Darn right, I am. This is when they start to just glaze over. You can tell they want …

Here

I made it. Finally, I made it.  I can hardly catch my breath.  I never actually expected to make it here.  There was something always getting in my way. Mostly that was me, but I made it. I must have passed by this place a thousand times. Mostly in my head, passing the time until …

Date Night

I took myself on a date last night.  Just me. And you want to know something?  It was perfect.  Perfect because I didn't have to worry about what I was going to wear.  Perfect because I could just be without worrying about trying to make an impression. Perfect because I didn't have to worry about …

Just the Two of Us

So here we are. Just the two of us, again.  You know, you're setting a pretty impossible bar.  Because even the good ones fall short.  You did that.  You made me realize just how much I deserve. How much I shouldn't settle. And just how much I have settled in the past.  I wish I …

“God Hid Her”

Because I shared this blog with another friend of mine. It didn't apply to me because at the time I was convinced that I had found the man of my dreams.  He was everything that I could have ever wanted and I believed that I was finally done looking.  My kids loved him. I loved …

Threat

I see how you look at me. Don't think I don't notice,  because I do.  I'm a threat to you. I get it. Because when you look at me, you see yourself. Because you can't quite figure it out. What did I do wrong? Because from the outside we had it all. Just like you. …

Happy

People must think I'm crazy.  I get that a lot. They take one look at me and they just don't understand.  I have been through so much. I have been through hell and back. I have been in constant battle with the enemy. I have a target on my back and I know it.  I …