living each day by grace
Because I thought I was over you. I thought that I had dealt with you. That I had taken all the power from you. But I was wrong. Man, was I wrong. I can still remember what it felt like to see those messages and to know in that moment that my marriage was actually …
'Wait, what?' It's the question I get asked the most when explaining how my ex husband walked out on me and our kids on our 5 year wedding anniversary nearly 4 years ago. 'But, you're like, happy...?' Darn right, I am. This is when they start to just glaze over. You can tell they want …
Can you believe it's been two years? Two whole years. On one hand it seems like nothing. Just a blink. On the other, so much has changed. Today, I woke up grateful. Grateful that two years ago you decided to leave me. I knew when I met you that you would change my life, but …
I took myself on a date last night. Just me. And you want to know something? It was perfect. Perfect because I didn't have to worry about what I was going to wear. Perfect because I could just be without worrying about trying to make an impression. Perfect because I didn't have to worry about …
I see how you look at me. Don't think I don't notice, because I do. I'm a threat to you. I get it. Because when you look at me, you see yourself. Because you can't quite figure it out. What did I do wrong? Because from the outside we had it all. Just like you. …
Earlier this week, when I found myself on the phone talking to my ex there was something different about him. It wasn't that we were getting along. It wasn't that he was finally saying all the things I had wished he had been saying. But it was that he was happy. He was actually happy. …
I thought about this day for a long time. A whole year to be exact. I thought about where I would be. What my life would like. If I would be okay. I never imagined you would actually leave me, not for good anyways. I got pretty used to you always walking out, but the …
Oh, Facebook. You and your memories. Today, you reminded me that 6 years ago it was 'one month till I was a Mrs.' Now I look at the calendar and remind myself that it's one month until I celebrate a year that my husband left me. Yes, celebrate. Because you see, I am no longer …
I just picked out the dates in October for a second vacation. I decided I don't want to be here when our wedding anniversary turned the day you left me comes around. And so I picked somewhere warm. Somewhere I could escape for just a little bit because I already know, it's gonna be a …
I can't get over how different it all feels this time. Y'all, it's kind of amazing. I'm finishing up packing. Getting things ready to hit the road back home to North Carolina. Washing, folding, packing. Organizing. Or my pathetic attempt at such. It has been an amazing 3+ weeks. I have rested. I have been …
