Here I Am

Because I can still remember all the prayers I thought you forgot.

The nights I spent crying.

Asking you what I did to deserve any of this.

Because I was miserable. I was lonely. And because I felt forgotten.

But then here I am.

And I am only here because of You.

Because you pursued me.

And you brought me even closer to you.

This entire time. There you were. Right beside me.

Loving.

Pursuing.

Even when I messed up.

When I gave up trusting you.

When I was convinced my way was better.

When I thought you had better things to do.

When I was too ashamed to talk to you.

There you were.

Loving.

Pursuing.

Because you knew better.

You knew this place.

You knew him.

And you knew that he was exactly what I needed.

Because you heard every prayer.

Because you caught every tear.

And because you knew exactly what I deserved- even better than I did.

Because you always keep your promises.

Because you’re still not done.

And because you’re still at it.

Loving.

Pursuing.

Lord, thank you. Thank you for all of this. For this life you have created for me. For him. Lord, you are so good. Help me to trust more. To be reminded of how good You are everyday. Even in this world of brokenness and hurt. You are still good. And we can put our hope in you. Lord, thank you for loving me and pursuing me even when I begged you to just leave me alone. You are so good, Lord. Lord, thank you for being such a good father to me. Help me to grow into Your ways, Lord. Give me a new heart.Help me to trust you, Lord. Without ceasing. But mostly, Lord, thank you. Just thank you. In Your Name I pray. Amen.

Come Holy Spirit, come.

Change my heart.

Give me a heart that desires the things you do.

That loves without borders.

Align my heart to yours.

Change me into the woman you desire me to be.

Lord, help me to seek your will above my own.

And cleanse me of anything that breaks your heart.

I pray these things in Your name for Your honor and glory.

Amen.

Catch Me

And I think my biggest fear is that one day I’ll wake up and realize it was never real. 

That it was too good to be true.

That I went and did it again. 

Falling for the wrong guy. 

That I will wake up and I won’t have my best friend anymore. 

That it was all in my head. 

That I should have known better. 

Because how can this be? 

How could I have finally found you? 

How can it be as good as it is?

Because I don’t think I could bear to know that this wasn’t real. 

That I was just imagining things.

Because I’m afraid that I will never feel this way again. 

Because I jumped. Without hesitation. Without even thinking. 

I just jumped. 

And maybe it’s not that my biggest fear is falling too hard. 

It’s that you won’t be there to catch me. 

And if I’ve learned anything, it’s that I need you to catch me.

Amen

Lord, thank you. 

Thank you for this man. This amazing and perfect man. This man I never realized existed. 

This man who changed everything. 

Lord, thank you. 

Thank you for sending me a man who loves You more than he loves himself. A man who knows You. A man who fears You. A man who isn’t afraid to talk about You.

Lord, thank you. 

Lord, bless this man. Bless this relationship. And bless this family. 

Lord, help us to live a life that brings honor and glory to Your name. 

Lord, fill us with your Holy Spirit so that we may walk in Your ways.

Lord, thank you for guiding us when we don’t know the way. For forgiving us when we fall short. And for loving us in a way that allows us to love each other. 

I pray that no matter where we find ourselves down the road, that our eyes will always be fixed on you, Lord. 

Hand in hand, I pray we will always seek you, together. 

I pray these things in Your name. For Your honor and glory. 

Amen. 

Falling Short

I wish I could figure out the words. 

The words to use to talk about this. 

To talk about us.

See? Words are my life. They are the one thing I know. The one place I feel the most comfortable. (Well, besides you.)

And yet, with you, I fall short. Every time, I fall short. 

Because, you see, it all changed with you.

The whole story. 

It changed. 

I had no idea that it could be like this. No one ever told me it could be like this. 

Perhaps, they found themselves falling short too. 

But you and me. This. Whatever this is. This is good. This is exactly how it’s supposed to be. 

And yeah, I’ve thought I’ve been here before. 

I have prayed about getting to this place.

I have looked for you everywhere. 

But it turns out, I was looking for all the wrong things. 

Because this? I would have had no idea to even look for this. 

Because I never knew this existed. 

But, here you are. 

And I wish I could figure out the words to talk about this. 

But, maybe we can just fall short together. 

And I’m (still) Celebrating

Can you believe it’s been two years? 

Two whole years.

On one hand it seems like nothing. Just a blink. On the other, so much has changed. 

Today, I woke up grateful. 

Grateful that two years ago you decided to leave me. 

I knew when I met you that you would change my life, but I had no idea what that would look like. 

But you did. 

You changed everything. 

And I am so grateful. 

It’s funny, but I look forward to this day. I take it all in. 

And then you know what I do next? 

I celebrate. 

I celebrate all of it. 

The high’s. The low’s. The times when I wasn’t sure how I was going to get back up. And the times I never thought I’d come back down. 

You have given me an opportunity to grow and to find compassion in places I thought impossible. 

Without even knowing it, you have taught me grace. 

I have grown closer to Him. Setting an example to our kids that it is easier to love than to hate. 

I won’t lie and say it’s been easy. It hasn’t. But it’s been worth it. 

So, today I’m gonna celebrate. 

Still. 

5 Morning Rituals Worth Having

Okay, so first, don’t hate me, y’all, but I love mornings. 

Like, LOVE mornings. 

I’m pretty useless at night, but the mornings are where I shine. 

I can be so bubbly, perky and downright annoying in the mornings, but man, do I love them. 

However, it turns out not everyone is a big fan of the morning time. (Note sarcasm) 

So because mornings have the potential to influence your entire day, I wanted to share some good, morning rituals with you that I think make a huge difference in my day. 

And maybe, they’ll help yours!

1. Drink A Glass Of Water

Before you do anything else, grab some water. I like to keep a water bottle next to my bed so I don’t even have to get out of the bed to drink my water. If you prefer something hot, make a cup of hot water and add a couple of slices of lemon. 

2. Don’t Check Emails Or Social Media For An Hour

Not going to lie, this one was and can still be tough for me. As someone who works from home and owns their own business there really is no such thing as ‘time away from the office’. I am always working (because I love what I do!). But there’s something to this tip. Allowing myself to wake up without interruption has been so beneficial to my health. It gives me time to just sit and reflect. 

3. Practice Gratitude 

Whether it’s working on ‘Thank You’ notes for my beloved clients and members or it’s taking some time out to write in my gratitude journal, I find that when I start the day off by being thankful, it changes my whole attitude. 

4. Eat A Nourishing Breakfast

I know this seems like a no-brainer, but think about how busy our mornings can be. I have walked out of my house so many times just forgetting to eat breakfast. Like, it just didn’t register to me that I should take time out to eat. And I’m not talking a muffin or a doughnut, but actually taking the time to eat a nourishing breakfast. My favorite quick and nourishing breakfast? Oatmeal and fruit. 

5. Move Your Body

I know this might not be an option for everyone, but if you can, do it. Waking up and moving your body is vital, in my opinion. Now, I’m the girl who heads to the gym, but even if you don’t have time to go to the gym in the mornings try a little stretching at home. Or maybe some crunches? Or even a walk to the mailbox?  Anything will help! You just gotta get moving. 

Remember, it takes 21 days to create a habit, but it only takes 90 days to create a lifestyle. :)

9 Reasons Why You Should Drink More Water

Because we could all stand to drink a little more water, right? 

1. Increases Energy & Relieves Fatigue

Say what?! I mean, it does make sense since your brain is made up of mostly water. And drinking it helps you concentrate, focus and be more alert.  As if that wasn’t reason enough, your energy levels are increased too! Anyone else need a little boost of energy?

2. Promotes Weight Loss

Y’all, get ready. Yes, you read that right. Promotes weight loss, but how? Drinking water actually removes by-products of fat. It also reduces your eating intake (if you drink it before meals), reduces hunger (yep, a natural appetite suppressant!), and it raises your metabolism! 

3. Puts You In A Good Mood

Because when your body is opearating at it’s peak, you will feel great and be happy! 

4. Natural Headache Remedy

Helps reduce and can even prevent heachaches (migraines & back pain too!) which are usually caused by dehydration. 

5. Improves Skin Complexion

Because water helps keep your skin hydrated and moisturizer. It also helps maintain that fresh, soft, glowing look that we all love. 

6. Prevents Cramps & Sprains

Acting as a lubricant, proper hydration can help keep muscles more elastic so joint pain is less likely. 

7. Maintains Regularity 

Because water is essential to digestion and helps prevent constipation. 

8. Flushes Out Toxins

Through sweat and urination water helps get rid of toxins. This also reduces the risk of kidney stones and UTI’s (urinary tract infections). 

9. Boosts Immune System

 A person who drinks a lot of water is less likely to get sick. And who wouldn’t want to feel healthy most of the time? 

With You

I will not make this tragedy about me. 

I will not make it about my beliefs. 

I will not make it my platform to take my stance. 

Because I think that’s the problem. 

The sense of self. 

This pride and sense of entitlement to be right. 

To be heard. 

To be sure that everyone knows how we feel. 

So instead, I’m going to think about you. 

I’m going to let my heart break with you. 

I’m going to get angry with you and not at you. 

Because I will not make this tragedy about me. 

But I will use it as an opportunity to stand with you.