So here we are. Just the two of us, again.
You know, you’re setting a pretty impossible bar.
Because even the good ones fall short.
You did that.
You made me realize just how much I deserve. How much I shouldn’t settle. And just how much I have settled in the past.
I wish I could tell you that I’m getting more comfortable with the lonliness, but I’m not.
I wish I could tell you that I’m not sitting here wondering what the heck is wrong with me, but I can’t.
But mostly I just wish that you could be here so I could feel a little less lonely.
So help me.
Help me to find contentment in this season.
Because it’s hard not to compare. Especially when it’s so quiet here.
It’s hard not to want what ‘they’ have.
Because the enemy is desperate to convince me that I don’t belong.
So that’s why I need your help.
Help me to appreciate this season.
Help me to feel your presence.
Help me to remember that I am not alone, not really.
Help me to shift my focus to all the amazing things I have in my life.
Help me to have a heart of gratitude.
Help me to love this life just as you intended.
Because it’s not about me. Nope. It’s about you.
You should probably remind me of that too. A lot.
Give me the knowledge of your will and the strength to carry that out.
I’m putting a lot of emphasis on that last part.
Because that’s where you really come in.
(Because I don’t know if you know this, but I kind of like doing things my way.)
So, here goes nothing, right?
Because here we are. Just the two of us, again.