I remember when God first laid it on my heart that I would be ‘leading’ a study on Hosea.
I begged for any other book in the Bible. I didn’t know Hosea. I wasn’t comfortable talking to anyone about Hosea, but He was adamnet. And if I’ve learned anything over my walk with Christ, it’s that sometimes you just gotta trust Him.
What a fitting way to end the book of Hosea. Especially in regards to what’s been going on in my life.
When my ex husband walked out on me in October 2015, I was determined to find love.
At any cost.
I wanted it. I was desperate for it. I craved it.
I prayed for it.
For over a year, I couldn’t understand why God wasn’t answering me the way I wanted.
Until I found myself spending new year’s alone.
I had big plans for the New Year. I had an idea of what it was going to look like.
But instead, I stayed at home, took a bath, and soaked in the silence.
It was then that I got it.
That love that I had so desperately craved for. It was Him.
The feeling of someone loving me in spite of all my brokenness. It was Him.
Oh, I looked for that love everywhere else.
But it was always Him.
And even if I wasn’t sure, here it is again. As we conclude the book of Hosea and this study.
Not only did He have me lead on a study about love, but perhaps the greatest love story of all.
The love He has for us. The kind you can’t earn. The kind you can’t run away from. The kind that just sort of grabs you when you least expect it.
Because no matter what we do. No matter how much we might not want it. No matter how far we run from it.
He’s always going to love us.
Because, if Hosea has taught us anything, it’s that that’s just who He is.
He is love. And for some crazy reason, He can’t help but love us.
Lord, thank you for loving us. Thank you for loving us even on the hard days. Thank you for never letting us have anything to do with whether or not you love us. Thank you for being the only constant we can count on. Lord, I pray that anyone who reads these words will know just how loved they are by you. Even on the worst days. Because Lord, your love is unfailing. Your love is constant. And your love is exactly what we crave, even if we don’t know it. I pray these things in your name. Amen.