So See?

Whatever God does for you is the best thing that could have happened to you.

Say it again.

Whatever God does for you is the best thing that could have happened to you.

One more time.

Whatever God does for you is the best thing that could have happened to you.

I heard that phrase, that sentence, I heard that and I stopped dead in my tracks. I couldn’t swallow it. It sat in my mouth for a minute. I wasn’t sure what to do with it. So I just stopped dead in my tracks and waited. I didn’t want to choke.

I don’t know how much time passed until I remembered how to move. How to breathe. It knocked the wind right out of me.

Are you telling me that these recent events are the best thing that could have happened to me?! I was angry now. I wasn’t sure who I was talking to, but I just knew they were crazy. These last three months. How could that be the best thing to happen to me? Who did they think they were?

These last three months. The abandonment, the betrayal, the pain, the hurt, the loss, the tears, the nothingness, the doubt, the fear. Those aren’t good things. People avoid those things at all costs. You never hear anyone say ‘you know, I’m really in the mood for some doubt and betrayal, what about you?” That just doesn’t happen.

So how in the world can anyone say that what has happened is the best thing that could have happened to you? Well, they say that because it’s true.

This affair was the best thing that could have happened to me. There, I said it. It was. I didn’t feel that way a month ago. I certainly didn’t feel that way the day I found out. But had it not been for this affair, well, I wouldn’t be married.

No, you read that right. My marriage was over. It was broken. IT was completely out of control. No one was happy. There was nothing left that we could do to fix it. We had given up.

The plan was to leave. To move on. To forget. It had been decided.

I remember why I fell in love with Justin. I remember how he used to make me feel. I remember that there was a time in my life when nothing he did annoyed me. Where I thought life was perfect. Where I wouldn’t have changed anything. We were still those same people, but we stopped worrying about the other and we only worried about ourselves.

Had this affair not happened, I wouldn’t have thought back to the beginning. I wouldn’t have turned back to chapter one. Sure, I wasn’t looking for our story, rather, I was looking for what happened, where everything went wrong, but what I found was a nice reminder of who we were and why we were here.

As I spent most of this time analyzing and thinking, this affair took me on a vacation. I was away from reality. I was traveling, remembering moments and feelings. God was simply reading our story to me. A story that I had forgotten.

I cried because I remembered the good times. I remembered what made us so great. That’s what hurt. It only hurt because it had been so good.

This affair was the best thing that God could have done for me because He let us keep writing our story. It wasn’t over.

I couldn’t see that before. I couldn’t understand why He was letting this happen. I couldn’t understand why He wanted me to forgive them. I couldn’t understand why He wanted me to love them.

Our story wasn’t over.

I had to forgive because our story wasn’t over. I had to love because our story wasn’t over. He knew how important this story was to me, to us and so He didn’t let us end it.

So see? Whatever God does for you is the best thing that could have happened to you.

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