Today, I went to the pool.
I haven’t been to the pool since I found out. I hid in my room. In my bed. I was too afraid to walk outside.
Afraid that people could tell that I wasn’t good enough. Afraid they knew that something was wrong me.
I was the woman who couldn’t keep her husband happy. I was the woman who failed at her marriage. I was the woman who had been defeated.
But today, in a moment, everything changed.
He reminded me that I was not those things. I was never those things. I would never be those things.
In a moment He reminded me that I was strong. I was beautiful. I had been enough.
Most of all He reminded me that I was never defeated.
My marriage isn’t a failure. And it wasn’t my fault that my husband wasn’t happy.
Does it still hurt? Of course. Am I over it? Absolutely not. But today, in this moment I know that I’m gonna be just fine.