Oh boy, where do I even begin??
Just thinking about where to start already has me in tears because we have had some good times together. (Geeze, and this is just your birthday, just wait until I have to drop you off at school.)
Jaxsyn, you have brought such joy to my life. I have never loved this way before. I didn’t even know that it was possible to love someone else so much, but I do. And it just grows and grows and grows. Each day I love you a little more than the day before.
I cannot even believe that you are five years old. Seriously!? Where did the time go? I always knew it would go by fast, but no one can ever prepare you for just how fast.
I can still remember meeting you for the first time, like it was yesterday. I pushed and pushed until you finally made your arrival. (After 26 hours of labor) The room was perfectly still because we just couldn’t even prepare ourselves for what was happening. You were changing lives that day. There wasn’t one person in that room you didn’t change.
I counted fingers and toes (they were all there!) and couldn’t take my eyes off of you. You were absolutely perfect and I was perfect because now I was a mother, your mother.
You know, I’ve been through a lot in my life. I’ve not always done the right things, but when I finally held you in my arms for the first time, I knew, at that moment, that I had done something right. There are days when I still wake up and I can’t believe that God has given me this precious life to take care of and love. But He knew exactly what I needed and He made us perfect for each other.
At 8:32 pm on September 14, 2009 a 9lb 1.3oz baby boy forever changed my life.
You are my best friend dude, and while I wish you would slow down just a little, I’d be lying if I didn’t tell you how exciting it has been to watch you grow into this fine 5 year old that you are.
I know you might not remember much from today, but just remember how loved you are and that no matter how big or how old you get you will never stop being my little boy. Nope, never.
I love you so much Jaxsyn Feenix and I hope you have the happiest birthday ever!
“I’ll love you forever,
I’ll like you for always.
As long as I’m living,
My baby you’ll be.”