I just don’t get it.
I really don’t.
You’ll have to excuse me today, this isn’t so much a normal post as it is a rant. But I am fed up.
I get that not everyone is a Christian. I get that. I understand that. I realize that the more time I spend in this world the less time I spend encountering Christians. While I would love nothing more than for everyone to experience the Lord the way I have and to accept Jesus Christ as their Savior, let’s be real, it’s not going to happen. It makes me sad, and it breaks my heart, but it is what it is. (Doesn’t mean I’ll stop telling everyone about the awesome God I serve.)
So you can bet your bottom dollar that when people who constantly put down Christians, who constantly poke fun at our faith and our beliefs, tell me and other Christians how we should act, I get a little upset. I’m lying. I get really upset.
How can anyone who doesn’t know Jesus tell me how I should act? The thing is, being a Christian isn’t a constant set of rules that we check off each day. Being a Christian is messy. And a lot of the times I feel lost and out of control.
Being a Christian doesn’t mean that you are at the same place that another Christian is at in their life. We are all at very different places and just because you’ve reached a certain place before doesn’t mean that you can’t stumble backwards.
Being a Christian doesn’t make anyone better than anyone else, but it makes the Christian accountable. We have someone to answer too.
But don’t tell me that I have to love everyone even when I’m being bashed. Because being a Christian doesn’t mean that my feelings don’t get hurt. It doesn’t mean that I don’t get frustrated. Being a Christian doesn’t mean that I no longer have these very real emotions.Don’t tell me that I have to tolerate everyone’s choices. Don’t tell me that if I were a ‘real’ Christian that I would behave a certain way. The bottom line? The people who tell me, tell us, how we should act don’t have the slightest clue what it means to be a ‘real’ Christian.
I know that there have been times in my life where I have been a very poor example of a Christian. I’ve accepted that. But until you’ve walked with Christ, until you’ve accepted Him as who He is, then you have no idea what it means to be a ‘real’ Christian. You have no idea how hard it can be. You are clueless to how isolated it can make someone feel.
I do my best to love. I do my best to tolerate. I do my best to walk this very fine line between being a Christian and being a part of this world, but it is because of the people who tell me how I should act that this line has become even thinner. I don’t want to judge and I don’t want to hate, but being a Christian doesn’t make you ‘not human’. And if the line gets any thinner, well, I know what side of it I plan to be on.
I don’t want to offend, but it just so happens that the Lord I serve can be offensive. I do my best to accommodate, but when you get down to it, there is only One I serve.
So please, stop preaching love and tolerance when you have none to give yourself. I am very much aware of my flaws and I don’t need any reminding of how short I fall when it comes to being a ‘real’ Christian, I already know.