Is anyone else having a hard time believing that today is November 1st?? I mean, I get that we went trick or treating last night and so it would make sense that today would be November 1st, but seriously? Another year is almost over. Part of me is excited that this year is almost done because it has been hard and it has been a struggle and there are days that I’d like to forget, but then the more I think about it, there are days that I want to do again because they were just that great.
As November approaches each year and we get ready for the holiday season, with Thanksgiving just around the corner, I find that people start to think about the things they are thankful for. There are usually little games on social media where you can share what you are thankful for throughout the entire month. I’ve never participated in those because I could never remember to update, but this year I want to do something.
Since I homeschool Jaxsyn I’ve decided that I want to do something to reflect on what I’m thankful for with him and make it, not only a family thing, but a school thing too. So this year, as simple as it sounds, we will be making a ‘thankful jar’. We will be writing down things that we are thankful for and putting them in our jar. On days where we are sad or struggling we will dig some out and remember just what we have to be thankful for.
As I’ve prayed over the last week, I’ve realized that I’ve been spending a lot of time upset that I don’t have everything I want. No, I’m not talking about money or possessions, but I’ve really been under the impression that, well, the grass is greener on the other side. And then as I prayed and I really reflected, I realized that I have everything I want and need right here. I’ve actually never gone without. You see, I want my family. I want a husband who loves me even though I can be hard to love most days. I want a husband who would do anything for me. I want a husband who may not always get me, but he always tries. I want a marriage where I know no one is ever going to walk away. I want a marriage that is fought for, and is fought hard for. I want to be able to spend time with my kids and watch them grow up. I want to be a part of their lives. I want to always be there for them. I want them to be happy, always. I want to do what I love. I want to be able to write, as much and as often as I can. I want to read. I want to craft. I want to make things. I want to touch people with my words, my experiences, my stories. I want a church family who is always there for me and my family, who doesn’t judge and who is there when it’s good and when it’s bad. I want true friends. I want friends who don’t let 1100 miles change anything. I want friends that I can go weeks or months without talking to, but when we pick up the phone, it’s exactly as it was. I want a deep, intimate relationship with Jesus. I want to rely on Him to get me to where I’m going. I want to build my faith and I want to help others build theirs.
So, you see, I’ve always had what I wanted. My prayers didn’t go unanswered. I asked, He gave. Yes, I’ve been complaining a lot lately, and I’m not discrediting the hard times I’ve faced, but I’ve always had what I wanted. I just got distracted. I was too busy looking at the grass on the other side, that I forgot to look at my grass. I forgot to listen to God. I didn’t take the time out to be thankful. I wasn’t always giving Him a chance to answer my prayers. But He did, He does. And as I’ve said before He always does more than I expect. He’s always made sure I’ve had what I needed and wanted, not to mention the little added bonus He gave me of living in a place where it is still 70-80 degrees in November! And we didn’t wake up sick as dogs like every other November 1st after trick or treating in the freezing cold!
So this November, be it a ‘thankful jar’ or a game on social media, I encourage all of you, to take time to not be distracted. Sit back and reflect on what you’re thankful for, and then thank Him for always providing, just as He said He would.