What is There to Say?

I don’t even know what to say. I’m angry. I’m mad. I’m pissed. I’m hurt. I’m upset. I’m baffled. I’m confused. I’m sad. I’m homesick. I’m tired.

I need prayers. I am stubborn and I don’t want to do what I know I need to do and just let it go. I have been reluctant to turn this over to Jesus and let Him take care of it because I don’t want to appear weak. I don’t want people to think that I’m giving up because I’m not. But I’m tired of crying, and fighting and competing and crying some more.

So please pray for me because I am really struggling. Part of me is ready to run away back home to where I know I’m wanted, where I have my longtime friends, my family, and where I have support. The only thing keeping me put is my husband and the vows I took. So pray for us. Pray that things get better. Pray that our time in Texas is enjoyable. And pray that Justin finds a job in North Carolina so we can finally go back home.

4 thoughts on “What is There to Say?

  1. Bless your heart! I know it’s not easy being away from family and so many friends. You are not weak, you are human and God understands this all too well. Turn to Him. He will never leave or forsake you my friend. It is hard enough with 2 little ones much less a new home out of state. Hang in there…..it will get better. Keep your chin up and try to do somehting special for yourself today. I am praying for you, sweetie. Sending you love and a big hug!

    1. Thank you. You’re so sweet. I know He’s here with me. I’ve never felt closer to Him, but I just miss having support. I’m like a fish out of water down here. And with the holidays around the corner…God help me. :)

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