I don’t even know what to say. I’m angry. I’m mad. I’m pissed. I’m hurt. I’m upset. I’m baffled. I’m confused. I’m sad. I’m homesick. I’m tired.
I need prayers. I am stubborn and I don’t want to do what I know I need to do and just let it go. I have been reluctant to turn this over to Jesus and let Him take care of it because I don’t want to appear weak. I don’t want people to think that I’m giving up because I’m not. But I’m tired of crying, and fighting and competing and crying some more.
So please pray for me because I am really struggling. Part of me is ready to run away back home to where I know I’m wanted, where I have my longtime friends, my family, and where I have support. The only thing keeping me put is my husband and the vows I took. So pray for us. Pray that things get better. Pray that our time in Texas is enjoyable. And pray that Justin finds a job in North Carolina so we can finally go back home.