I often find myself struggling with the right way to say things or explain things to people who ask me questions about my devotion to God. Often I sound like a blubbering idiot because my words just don’t do Him justice. And the truth is I don’t really have all the answers. I have faith and so I don’t need all of the answers, but a lot of the times I just wish I could form the right words and offer a good explanation.
Christians refer to God as the Father. That I got. But I didn’t really put it into real life. It was something I just repeated back because I had heard the phrase for so long. Even when I became a parent I still didn’t put two and two together. But yesterday as the Bishop spoke to us I had one of my famous ‘ah-ha’ moments.
I am 29 years old and I still find myself wanting to please my parents. I want to make them proud. I want to show them the same amount of love that they have shown me over the years. (Even though that is impossible.) I still desire a relationship with them and I will until one of us takes our very last breath.
As a mother, I can only hope my children will feel the same, but more importantly I love my children unconditionally. There is nothing, and I mean absolutely nothing, that my children will/can/could/would do that would make me love them any less. And I mean any less. They don’t even have to love me and I will love them. They don’t have to make me proud and I will love them. They could hurt me and I would still love them. And then I got it.
This is what a relationship with God looks like. God is our Father. And as Christians we should desire to please him and love him. We should try to do good for him and in his name. And as our Father, he stays true to loving us. We can disappoint Him, we can stray away from Him, but He is always there patiently waiting for us to find our way back to Him. He never leaves us just as a parent never leaves his children. He doesn’t force us to love him, just as a parent doesn’t force his children to love. This illustration of God as a father is something that took me a long time to figure out, to understand, but it is something so simple that any of us can relate to.
For those of you that don’t believe, He still loves you. He always has and He always will. This is something that I had struggled very hard with for a very long time. Sometimes you just don’t feel like you deserve to be loved and you don’t deserve to have someone patiently waiting for you, but you do. I know the Bible and Christianity can come off as very difficult to understand and very difficult to navigate, but when you take a step back and you look at it for what it is, it is very simple to understand. Just as you love your parents and your parents love you so does God. Just as your parents don’t force a relationship with you, neither does God. You love because you are loved. And when you realize just how much God loves you then perhaps, like me, you’ll want to grow a deeper relationship with him.
See, pretty simple, huh?